“Help My Unbelief: 3 Ways God Will Make You Believe When Uncertain” 2/20/2016 by Edmond Sanganyado

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Original post  @  http://gracemusing.com/2016/02/16/help-my-unbelief-faith-and-uncertainity/

 

Published on February 16, 2016

Help My Unbelief: 3 Ways God Will Make You Believe When Uncertain

written by Edmond Sanganyado

 

And Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!” Mark 9:23-24

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And Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!” Mark 9:23-24

Cars buzz behind me signaling the end of President’s Day. From a distant, the small arc of the horizon illuminates the sky giving a shade of brown to the blue terrestrial ocean. No birds are singing, just the rustling of leaves as the fresh breeze hit my freshly shaved cheeks.

It’s a lovely day.

My son and his friend are playing in the courtyard with a purple balloon. He throws it in the air unaware of the gathering winds. The balloon sails into the sky and lands on the busy street. They watch in bewilderment as the passing cars dodge the balloon.

“Daddy,” he shouted, “My balloon is gone.”

I didn’t answer; absorbed in the stillness of the dusk, my thoughts sailed in the vast expanse of silence.

I missed that. The silence. The stillness. The not-thinkingness.

For the past five to six months I have been enamored by tomorrow, the unknown and what could be. Graduation. A job. Dissertation. Kids.

At moments of uncertainty, people tend to wrap their thoughts and actions around the only thing they think they can control. The only thing I could control was blogging. But it wasn’t satisfying.

I couldn’t control my kids. One morning they are healthy, the next they are sick. Worse still, they are busy being kids.

Can You Be Truly Certain of Anything?

You can’t be sure of both position and time. That’s the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle. It’s sad that this quantum mechanics principle plays out in real life. Time and position are mystery couple; when you know where you rarely known when. And the opposite is true.

The uncertainty principle says that we cannot measure the position (x) and the momentum (p) of a particle with absolute precision. The more accurately we know one of these values, the less accurately we know the other. Alok Jha

I can’t control my graduation or dissertation writing either. Experiments are unpredictable by nature, publishing journal articles depend on reviewers and associate editors and job offers on a search committee’s perception of my applications. I had little control.

I needed something that I could be sure. I wanted to do something I didn’t have to worry. They were too many uncertainties in my life. I felt like my son’s purple balloon floating in the air at the mercy of an unpredictable winter breeze.

If I don’t get a job now, I am going back to Zimbabwe. And the news coming from home isn’t good. Job cuts, power cuts, late salaries, and deflation awaits me. I love my country, but I have to feed my family and support my brothers and sisters. Zimbabwe is a beautiful rose with an ugly thorn ready to burst my balloon. I need a job.

Procrastination.

To graduate, I have to finish writing two reviews for my dissertation. I have completed the drafts. For the past two months, I have failed to collect my mind and edit the drafts. Every time I tried, my mind raced, and I couldn’t concentrate for just ten minutes. It’s painful. My brain is my work, and I am failing to control it.

Control. That word again.

A lanky man with a blue T-shirt and ripped jeans stands by the street. He is holding the balloon and hands it over to my son’s friend. The kids are ecstatic. Finally, the balloon is back.

“Hey guys, try to play further away from the street. You wouldn’t want the cars to pop your balloon.”

“Thank you for the balloon,” the kids shout in unison.

There’s something about kids I admire. They are just balloons filled with their parents’ love. They don’t worry about tomorrow because the love that fills and carries them knows. What gives them their shape and form are what carries them.

It got me thinking. What fills me? And what carries me?

If my thoughts were correct, then I was filled with uncertainty and floated in uncertainty. And I believed that. Proof? I spent my time worrying about my kids, graduating and getting a job.

I believed a lie.

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Like a loving parent, Father God filled me with his love. The Holy Spirit is ever present and guiding me like a breeze leads a floating balloon. Above all, Jesus Christ demonstrated His love for me while I was a sinner. I am loved, inside and out.

Where did the unbelief originate?

Every time you believe more in what you need or want than in the love of the Father, the fellowship of the Holy Spirit and the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, unbelief overtakes you. I exalted my needs instead of worshiping God in my uncertainty.

But Jesus doesn’t give up on us. Even when I turned my kids, graduation and jobs into an idol, He still loved me. I can’t recover the lost time or the emotional scars I painted to my family due to anger outbursts. But God’s goodness leads to repentance.

When my understanding is limited, Christ is the full assurance of understanding. When my fear of tomorrow and the unknown overwhelms me, Christ is the knowledge of God’s mystery. God’s love knits me together and encourages my heart. Colossians 2:2

When I become hopeless and doubtful, Christ stands by me as the full assurance of hope. He chose to make himself known to me. He revealed the mysteries of His glory, that is, Christ in me the hope of glory. Hebrews 6:11, Colossians 1:27 

Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain, that is, through his flesh, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. Hebrews 10:19-22

I don’t know the position I will be tomorrow, I don’t know the place I will be in six months, I don’t know what I will be doing by this time next year. But I know someone who does. He’s the anchor of my life.

He created both space and time, he’s not limited by time and isn’t subject to positions in space. He’s omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent. He’s my God and my king who loves me the way he loved his only begotten son.

I turn my eyes to Christ. Where else could I put them? After all, He is standing in front of me with a smile, “Edmond, do you believe?”

“I believe, but help me in my unbelief.”

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