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June 4, 2020 by Nancy Ruegg
are you still up?
That was the text sent by son #2 last Thursday evening, close to 10:00 p.m.
An interesting idea had just occurred to him, one that required input from his mother. Maybe I should say output.
You see, Jeremy is a pastor, and although his church started worshiping together again two weeks ago, their choir is not participating in the services. His worship leader has been singing solo; Jeremy has offered back-up.
But for May 31st, Pentecost Sunday, he was hoping for more.
First, he remembered a popular praise song released in 1998, Holy Spirit, Rain Down. Jeremy was in high school then and sang tenor on the praise team of the church where his dad (my husband) was pastor. I sang alto.
After reminding me of the song, Jeremy wondered if I could record that alto part with an instrumental/vocal track he’d send via email. He would add the tenor part, and his worship leader the melody.
I reminded him my voice is not what it once was, and it’s been six years since I even sang in a choir. But I didn’t want to tell him no without even trying. Besides, how many times must I tell myself, “It. Doesn’t. Have. To. Be. Perfect!”
So on Friday, with Jeremy as my guide via phone and computer, I climbed the learning curve of Garage Band, an APP for making music with vocals and/or instruments—multiples if desired. You’ve probably seen the results of such efforts on YouTube. Perhaps you’ve recorded music yourself.
Once set up, I could record as many times as needed and send Jeremy the best rendition. But after practicing numerous times, my voice started to give out. I had to quit.
Saturday morning was zero hour. Either I’d be able to send Jeremy a decent alto part, or ruin his plan and tell him there would be no trio. As I prepared to record, my heart started thrumming audibly and my breath coming faster than normal.
What is wrong with you?! I scolded. No one else is here in the study; you can record as many times as you want. Get a grip!
The problem was clear: A big cloud of nervous self-consciousness had enveloped me.
All I knew to do was pray.
Lord God, this is so silly. WHY am I overcome with apprehension? Even if I sing this twenty times and not one effort is perfect, what difference does it make?!
Calm these nerves, Heavenly Father. Help me to lose focus on my performance and worship you unencumbered. Remove this self-centeredness. I want to be lost in the heartfelt prayer of these lyrics—so appropriate right now—and mindful only of you, my audience of One.*
Even before I’d finished, my heart rate began to slow and my breathing return to normal. I sang the song twice, and sent the second effort to Jeremy. It wasn’t perfect, but it was good enough.
When I confessed to Jeremy my case of senseless nerves and subsequent prayer, he said, “You’ve got a blog post here, Mom!”
Perhaps I do, I thought, since others suffer from self-consciousness also. I wondered, Are there strategies we could implement to cure ourselves once and for all?
Here’s what a bit of reading revealed:
Prayer is the first step. But we should not expect one prayer to vanquish all self-consciousness forever. It’s a prayer we’ll likely have to renew every time that nuisance-of-an-emotion sidles up to us.
Focus on Who we’re seeking to honor. The better our focus, the less we’ll be thinking about ourselves.
Just as Jesus told Satan to leave him alone (Matthew 4:10), we can tell the author of self-conscious thoughts to leave us alone.
Last Saturday, good enough became good aplenty. God heard my plea, immediately came to my rescue, and helped me calmly and worshipfully complete the task at hand. I couldn’t ask for more.
Have you ever felt self-conscious? What helps you to overcome it? Please share in the comment section below!
* “Audience of One,” by Big Daddy Weave, 2002.
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To my brothers and sisters in Christ, please feel free to share this message of the cross with those in need…
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