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Something I wish I had understood better when I was young and dashing about taking care of kids, trying to run a business, is that, the Lord will never leave you or forsake you. That’s a promise, a guarantee, a vow written in His blood.
It’s easy to lose sight of your own value, to feel trapped in the drudgery of it all, to not understand how significant and important you are, and to feel as if the honeymoon is just over. Ha! That is true with both husbands and our relationship with the Lord. There are different seasons of life and feelings ebb and flow, so some of that is natural, normal, to be expected. Laughing here, but you simply cannot be in a state of heightened excitement 24/7. It’s just not good for your heart. So, seasons happen for a reason.
To feel as if the Lord is just far away however, and that you’ve somehow lost that loving feeling as the song goes, is totally unnecessary. Here’s what I finally discovered, we control our feelings, we control the honeymoon and romance of it all. God is such a gentleman too, so if you are super competent, super-efficient, and busy demonstrating just how well you can juggle all the balls in the air, the Lord will just step back and let you have at it.
The Bible says, “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.” That’s a Divine Gentleman! He simply stands there waiting for us to open the door. “We” open the door. Or not.
I knew that in the Lord I have my breathe and being, and I would read the Bible, and I would do all the right things almost by rote and routine, but they were somewhat detached from my heart. I was already distracted, already busy handling things, busy handling everything, actually. We ran a business, I had customers to take care of, bills to pay, quarterlies to file, kids to raise. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I handled everything so efficiently, I didn’t really have “need” of God. He would knock on the door and I’d unconsciously be like, Don’t worry about me, it’s all good, I got this! I was much like a child making their own sandwich in the kitchen, Leave me alone, I know what I’m doing!
Now, if you fall out the back of an ambulance with a broken leg and wind up face down in a drainage ditch, you can have a powerful experience with the Lord, complete with feelings and all! When we are in a dire situation and in desperate need, at the end of ourselves, there He is. Nothing quite like a near death experience to get your attention.
It can feel much harder to connect to Him when times are relatively good, when we got this and we are handling things.
I was the one standing on the garden hose keeping the Lord at arm’s length. That’s not necessarily a bad thing either, you’re not hurting the Lord’s feelings or rejecting Him when you’re raising children or investing in other things, for His glory. Seriously, we nurture and care for our families, for His glory.
Here’s where it gets to be a problem, and I’m laughing at myself because it’s quite silly and I really did this! I subconsciously kept the Lord at arm’s length, then felt vaguely unsettled because He felt so far away, then proceeded to blame myself for the distance between us, than tried to work faster and better to try to win His approval and attention.
That’s the kind of crazy that gave rise to “insanitybytes.” It’s all very clear to me today, but at the time I didn’t understand it all. I was totally confused and a bit hurt. I actually started to get resentful towards God and frustrated with the distance between us and more exhausted because the harder I tried, the farther from God I felt.
The problem was, “I” handled things. God was allowed in these certain areas of my life, but not in others. That, and I was not aware at the time that my relationship with Him had to come first in my life, it had to come before my desire for people favor, before my house was clean, before my kids even, and before my pride in my own competency and ability to handle it all, always, all by myself.
I was super competent because if you never depend on anyone else for anything, you never have to deal with disappointment, you never have to cope with betrayal, and you never have to risk abandonment.
…..I sleep, but my heart waketh: it is the voice of my beloved that knocketh, saying, Open to me, my sister, my love, my dove, my undefiled…
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To my brothers and sisters in Christ, please feel free to share this message of the cross with those in need…
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